If you see me now, you'd be really proud of me.

[12:08:22 AM] K. Zheng: hey can you think back to last semester
[12:08:25 AM] K. Zheng: or last year even
[12:08:30 AM] K. Zheng: can you name something thats different about me
[12:08:41 AM] JENG A LINGG: your ambition
[12:08:45 AM] JENG A LINGG: your drive
[12:08:53 AM] K. Zheng: aww youre so sweet :D
[12:08:56 AM] K. Zheng: thank you
[12:08:59 AM] JENG A LINGG: lol :)
[12:09:12 AM] K. Zheng: i want everyone to feel like that
[12:09:27 AM] JENG A LINGG: its true though, just last semester you were so unsure about being in hrm
[12:09:50 AM] JENG A LINGG: and im so happy for you that you youre happy with it and striving for whats best for your professional career
[12:09:57 AM] K. Zheng: yeah i was unahppy about it too
[12:10:01 AM] K. Zheng: and remember those days
[12:10:07 AM] K. Zheng: when id feel sad or gloomy for no reason
[12:10:12 AM] K. Zheng: and you thought it was becaose of you?
[12:10:18 AM] K. Zheng: well i had a hole in my heart
[12:10:21 AM] K. Zheng: and it wasnt from love
[12:10:24 AM] K. Zheng: it was from a lack of passion
[12:10:27 AM] K. Zheng: i had no soul almost
[12:10:35 AM] K. Zheng: im so much happier now
[12:10:43 AM] JENG A LINGG: :D
[12:10:45 AM] JENG A LINGG: im happy for you!
[12:10:51 AM] K. Zheng: thanks dear!
[12:10:54 AM] K. Zheng: im happy to have you :)
[12:10:59 AM] JENG A LINGG: im happy to have you most!
[12:11:03 AM] K. Zheng: NOPE!

Self-Awareness

I have truly changed.

There are so many opportunities for me! I am in love with so many programs that are available in all these great schools across the country.

I just fell in love with another one:

NYU's Global affairs Master of Science.

Goodness it would be wonderful to attain that.

Future

I've always admired those people who had a future all planned out. To be honest, right now I have no goals in life. I was never the one to believe in dreams and so I never made any realistic life plans to reach.

But now that I am in college, and I see the amount of pressure there is in the real world, I have come up with a tentative potential plan that I hope to follow. My failure to commit to an amazing school for my undergraduate degree has encouraged me to work harder and keep moving forward with my education. 

So my future goals are listed below.

Score superb on the GMAT: around 740. OR Do superb on the GRE: around 784.
Get a high GPA: 3.71 

Then, get into UC Berkeley or UCLA, or UChicago MBA programs. 

And maybe in between that, take a year or two off to work. 

I am a failure. I admit that.

It's a little hard to always please everybody. I try to make myself vulnerable for others to see so they know the genuine side of me. Sometimes though, I'm a little bit overboard. I know I can get a little.. annoying.

I'm sorry that you had to do that. I really liked you as a friend, and I was hoping our friendship would really last. But I'm guessing you found me to be obnoxious, annoying, and rude.

I hate to leave that kind of impression on people. But thanks for helping me out through this semester. I won't force a friendship if it's not mutual.